У Меня Огромная Потребность в Истинном Знании

У меня огромная потребность в истинном Знании

У Меня Огромная Потребность в Истинном Знании

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Как только я начала проходить Шаги к Знанию, я почти тут же осознала, что у меня огромная потребность в истинном знании. Знание, в такой форме как оно представляет собой в этих Шагах, оглашается далеким, но ясным звоном по Древним Коридорам моего ума, пробуждая меня к тому, чтобы его принимать и восстановить, ибо оно является центром моего бытия и присутствия в этом мире.

Спешу уверять, однако, что это осознание не пришло одним разом, я продолжаю его потихоньку проникать. Тем не менее, уже занимаясь этими Шагами всего лишь неделю (я прошла этот шаг 10 ноября 2012), я знала вне всякого сомнения, что моя потребность в истинном знании огромная.

Шаг 7 представляет собой обзор первых шести шагов, предлагая рассматривать каждый шаг в отдельности, а также обдумывать всю последовательность этих шагов в целом. Во время этого обзора не надо приходить к выводам, но оно требует, чтобы я осознала настолько я нуждаюсь в истинном знании.

Занимаясь этим шагом, я не только рассматривала проделанные шаги, а ещё сделала ретроспективный анализ своей жизни до настоящего момента, раздумывая серьезно над тем, что на самом деле толкает меня к действию.

Мои записки к этому обзору гласят: размышляя о своей жизни до настоящего времени, я поняла, что не с помощью анализа и выработки условных рефлексов я оказалась в той ситуации, где я нахожусь сегодня, а через внутреннее чувство, как будто меня вело какое-то более глубокое чутьё, что-то непостижимое. Если бы я действовала по велениям аналитического ума, я бы здесь в России не оказалась сегодня, ведь решение не из разумных.

Я могу говорить, что я хотела делать то, что сделала, потому что я думала, что принимаю правильное решение, но может быть на самом деле, у меня была потребность поступить таким образом, потому что неведомо следила за подсказками Знания. Иначе говоря, если ставлю «у меня есть потребность» на место «у меня есть желание», то картина кардинально меняется. А теперь я думаю, что, пожалуй, это было Знание, которое привело меня сюда, а не мои личные желания и предпочтения.

У меня огромная потребность в истинном знании. Это для меня очевидно, это само собой разумеется. И именно этой огромной потребностью в истинном знании является тот стимул, который пробуждает меня продолжать свой путь.

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How Great Is My Need For True Knowledge?

how great is my need for true knowledge, Kema River, Leningradskaya Oblast, Russia

How great is my need for true Knowledge?

After embarking on this journey known as Steps to Knowledge, I quickly became aware that my need for Knowledge is indeed great. Knowledge, as it is presented in these Steps, resounds like a distant but clear bell somewhere deep inside, speaking down the Ancient Corridors of my mind, beckoning me to reclaim it, for it is the center of my being and my presence in the world.

This awareness did not come in one fell swoop, mind you, and I am still plumbing its depths, but as early as the first week of Steps, I was certain beyond the shadow of a doubt that my need for true Knowledge is great.

Step 7 of Steps to Knowledge offers a review of the first six steps, suggesting that I look at each step covered so far and also consider the entire sequence of the steps together. This review does not require that I have any conclusions, but it does require that I realize the extent to which I need true Knowledge.

This Step prompted me not only to look back over the Steps covered so far, but to look back over my entire life so far and engage in some deep thinking about what motivates me, what moves me to make one decision and not another.

I wrote in my notes for this review: upon reflecting on my life up to this point, I realize that I got to where I am today not through analysis and conditioning, but through going with my gut feeling, as though I were being guided by something deeper, something more mysterious. If I had allowed my analytic mind to make the decisions, I would not be where I am today, since it really defies all logic.

I can say “I wanted to do what I did because I thought it was the right thing, it suited my preferences,” but perhaps what was really happening was I needed to do what I did because Knowledge was prompting me.  I was unwittingly following its guidance without even being consciously aware of it. In other words, if I substitute “I want” for “I need” in many situations, it puts things in a very different perspective. And now I am thinking that perhaps it is in fact Knowledge that has brought me to where I am today and not my personal beliefs and preferences.

How great is my need for true Knowledge?

My need for true Knowledge is great. This is very evident to me now, it is evident beyond the shadow of a doubt. It has brought me to where I am today, and it is what spurs me on to reach an even higher vantage point in the future.

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Welcome to Mystery of Ascension! Добро пожаловать в Тайну просветления! We document the study of the New Message from God in general, and the book Steps to Knowledge in particular. Мы тут делимся своим опытом изучения Нового Послания от Бога, в общем, и книги Шаги к Знанию в частности. Find out more about us here. Узнайте больше о нас здесь. Find out how to contact us here. Узнайте, как связаться с нами здесь.

What Am I Being With? Why Am I Being With It?

MeditationI took a brief vacation from blogging about Steps to Knowledge after the lengthy Step 49 review of the first 48 steps.  But I am now refreshed and ready to resume the ascent.  Step 50 is “Today I will be with Knowledge.”  What have we been told about Knowledge so far?  We have been told, among other things…

  • I brought Knowledge with me from my Ancient Home. (Step 1)
  • Knowledge is something I greatly need (Step 7)
  • Knowledge is my True Self, a self that is not apart from life (Step 10)
  • Knowledge must be distinguished from my thoughts (Step 15)
  • The Teachers of God assist my discovery of Knowledge (Step 23)
  • My life up to now is a demonstration of life without Knowledge (Step 28)
  • Reclaiming Knowledge is part of my mission in life (Step 33)
  • There is a particular pathway to Knowledge which works for me (Step 38)
  • Reaching Knowledge, like everything else, is a group effort (Step 45)
  • Knowledge works in the limited context of my individuality (Step 46)

After all the amazing things that have been said about Knowledge, to say that I can be with Knowledge is another amazing thing.  Can that really be so?  There seems to be some awareness that I would wonder things like this, as the step instructs “Do not argue with yourself about the reality of your pursuit, for that is wasteful and meaningless.”

I still struggled with the idea of practicing feeling something when I did this step.  It helped when they said “relax and be present.”  I could do that.

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Welcome to Mystery of Ascension! Добро пожаловать в Тайну просветления! We document the study of the New Message from God in general, and the book Steps to Knowledge in particular. Мы тут делимся своим опытом изучения Нового Послания от Бога, в общем, и книги Шаги к Знанию в частности. Find out more about us here. Узнайте больше о нас здесь. Find out how to contact us here. Узнайте, как связаться с нами здесь.

I May Need A Cup Of Coffee (Or Two) For This Step

Step 49 of Steps to Knowledge, like the other Steps evenly divisible by 7, is a review.  But it is a review of the all of the Steps done so far.  Steps 1 through 6 will therefore be reviewed three times, as they were reviewed in Step 7, Step 14, and Step 49. All the other steps will be reviewed twice, as they were reviewed in their own review step, and in Step 49.

This step contains the first instance of the word “Congratulations” in Steps to Knowledge.  I don’t consider this a word of idle flattery. I say anyone who has arrived at this point has demonstrated some openness of mind and some resolve.

The current plan is to write a series of posts, sharing what I wrote when I did the Step 49 Review, seven posts at a time, and adding any additional comment if needed.

Step 1 – I am without Knowledge now – “Nothing particularly controversial, although I have no idea what they mean by ‘Ancient Home.’  Maybe the Mormons were right all along.  As I have gone along, Knowledge has gotten bigger, greater, wiser.”  The Mormons speak of a premortal existence, and their missionaries show a picture of a beautiful parklike place when they speak of it.

Step 2 – Knowledge is with me.  Where am I? – “Where am I? ‘Flopping about on the surface of my mind, imagining that’s all there is.’  I want Knowledge to make me non-autistic, but Knowledge seems to have other plans.”  I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome, a mild form of autism, in 2006.

Step 3 – What do I really know? – “I seem to recall thinking there were some things I knew at the time, but now I’m not so sure if I know anything.”

Step 4 – I want what I think I know – “I think I know that the world needs a hero, and that I want to be one.”  On further review, maybe heroic ambitions are part of the problem.

Step 5 – I believe what I want to believe – “I recall thinking when I did this step ‘I believe what I want to believe in order to survive, reproduce, have power, have pleasure, and avoid responsibility.’ I am screwed, humanity is screwed, living in a world of delusion.”

Step 6 – I have a true foundation in the world – “Steps bounce back and forth between confessions of the current state of bewilderment, and the alternative good news.  Telling me that I haven’t come to the world empty-handed was/is a great consolation, as I have been a problem for the past 30 years.”  Ok, ok, that’s definitely overdramatizing things. I’ve had many happy moments, but I’ve also had many issues and disappointments.  Some of them might have been because my unknown-at-the-time autistic tendencies, and some of them might have been because of prosaic poor choices.

Step 7 – Review – “Whatever I think Knowledge is, that ain’t it.  Furthermore, what I think I know is part of the problem.  I feel the way I think, I think the way I believe, and any correspondence between what I believe and what is so is purely coincidental.”

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Welcome to Mystery of Ascension! Добро пожаловать в Тайну просветления! We document the study of the New Message from God in general, and the book Steps to Knowledge in particular. Мы тут делимся своим опытом изучения Нового Послания от Бога, в общем, и книги Шаги к Знанию в частности. Find out more about us here. Узнайте больше о нас здесь. Find out how to contact us here. Узнайте, как связаться с нами здесь.

Chinese Steps To Knowledge Sudoku

Chinese Sudoku 1 Final

This is part of my desire to get out more, to become more aware and literate of other nations and cultures.

Sudoku puzzles usually have the numbers from 1 through 9 in the boxes.  But there is no compelling reason why numbers have to be used instead of symbols.  I have selected certain words from the first few steps of Steps to Knowledge and looked up Chinese versions of these words for the symbols.

The words are 知识, Zhīshì (“knowledge,” as in “I am without Knowledge now“), 知道, Zhīdào (“know” or “I know,” as in “What do I really know?“), 要, Yào (“want,” as in “I want what I think I know“), 认为, Rènwéi (“think”), 相信, Xiāngxìn (“believe,” as in “I believe what I want to believe“), 复习, fù xí (“Review“), 还, hái (“still,” as in “Today I will be still“), 寂静, Jìjìng (“stillness,” as in “In stillness, all things can be known“), and 神秘, Shénmì (“mystery,” as in the sentence “It [Knowledge] is the great mystery of your life” in the step “What is Knowledge?“)

I have created puzzles like this in the past, as I have been curious as to how much the symbols would increase the difficulty of the puzzle.  I would like to think this puzzle has a nobler purpose.

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Welcome to Mystery of Ascension! Добро пожаловать в Тайну просветления! We document the study of the New Message from God in general, and the book Steps to Knowledge in particular. Мы тут делимся своим опытом изучения Нового Послания от Бога, в общем, и книги Шаги к Знанию в частности. Find out more about us here. Узнайте больше о нас здесь. Find out how to contact us here. Узнайте, как связаться с нами здесь.

Oh, Where Have You Been?

“Oh, where have you been, my blue-eyed son?
Oh, where have you been, my darling young one?
I’ve stumbled on the side of twelve misty mountains
I’ve walked and I’ve crawled on six crooked highways
I’ve stepped in the middle of seven sad forests
I’ve been out in front of a dozen dead oceans
I’ve been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard
And it’s a hard, and it’s a hard, it’s a hard, and it’s a hard
And it’s a hard rain’s a-gonna fall”

Bob DylanA Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall

Debriefing and reviewing seem to be an integral part of the learning experience.  I’m recalling the 72-member advance team that Jesus deployed in the 10th chapter of Luke’s gospel.  The debriefing session took place in Luke 10:17-24.  But the point I’m approaching is that Step 7 of Steps to Knowledge is a review of the first six steps, both individually and as a sequence.  I consider this to be the important sentence in this step:

“It is very important at this juncture that you not require that you have any conclusions, but that you ask questions and realize the extent to which you need true Knowledge.”

It did not occur to me to make such a word cloud when I did this Step.  I see it saying, “If you wish to approach Knowledge, you must practice, you must think, you must question your assumptions.”

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Welcome to Mystery of Ascension! Добро пожаловать в Тайну просветления! We document the study of the New Message from God in general, and the book Steps to Knowledge in particular. Мы тут делимся своим опытом изучения Нового Послания от Бога, в общем, и книги Шаги к Знанию в частности. Find out more about us here. Узнайте больше о нас здесь. Find out how to contact us here. Узнайте, как связаться с нами здесь.