Круги на воде

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Шаг 40. «Сегодня я почувствую силу Бога» в книге «Шаги к Знанию: книга внутреннего познания» предлагает почувствовать силу Бога без фантазии, то есть, без вызова в воображении фантастические картины. Я должна её ощущать, ведь она везде и имеет огромную благосклонность.

Сила Бога тихая и всё остальное является «временные движения в великой тишине Бога», как гласит Шаг 40. Когда я читала это снова сегодня, пришла на ум образ – круги на воде. Они появляются, распространяются и исчезают. По мере их распространения, они могут оказать некое воздействие, вызывать движение, возбуждать волнение, но они временные, они приходят и уходят.

Этот Шаг описывает такие вещи, как смерть, болезнь, потерь и разрушение, конфликты, которые часто имеют огромное значение для людей, как временные явления в великой тишины Бога. С этой точки зрения, кажется бессмысленно вкладывать столько страданий и слез, чрезмерно напрягаться по поводу таких вещей. Ведь сила Бога намного больше, намного благотворнее, «настолько совершенной и всесторонней, что он воодушевляет всё». Это не значит, что сила Бога устраняет эти временные явления, их предотвратит, это просто значит, что они незначительные по большему счету, в великом плане бытия, где обитает сила Бога. Они круги на воде.

Эти стихи Валерия Брюсова кажутся мне подходящими.

Круги на воде

От камня, брошенного в воду,
Далеко ширятся круги.
Народ передает народу
Проклятый лозунг: «мы – враги!»

Племен враждующих не числи:
Круги бегут, им нет числа;
В лазурной Марне, в желтой Висле
Влачатся чуждые тела;

В святых просторах Палестины
Уже звучат шаги войны;
В Анголе девственной – долины
Ее стопой потрясены;

Безлюдные утесы Чили
Оглашены глухой пальбой,
И воды Пе-че-ли покрыли
Флот, не отважившийся в бой.

Везде – вражда! где райской птицы
Воздушный зыблется полет,
Где в.джунглях страшен стон тигрицы,
Где землю давит бегемот!

В чудесных, баснословных странах
Визг пуль и пушек ровный рев,
Повязки белые на ранах
И пятна красные крестов!

Внимая дальнему удару,
Встают народы, как враги,
И по всему земному шару
Бегут и ширятся круги.

Чувствую ли я силу Бога? Не знаю, скорее всего нет. Но сегодня я понимаю эту силу как чистый импульс, вневременный момент узнавания. Она входит глубже чем круги на воде, в глубь сознания, вызывая далекую и забытую память. Я стремлюсь к тому, чтобы вспоминать эту силу сегодня.

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Ripples on the Surface

ripples on the surface

Step 40. “Today I will feel the power of God” of Steps to Knowledge asks me to attempt to feel the power of God without conjuring up magical images. It is something I need to feel, for it is everywhere and it has great benevolence.

The power of God is still and all else is “temporary movements in the great stillness of God,” Step 40 tells me. What came to mind as I read this again today is ripples on the surface of a body of water. They spread out and disappear. While they are spreading, they may have some effect, stir some movement, cause some agitation, but they are temporary, they come and they go, they appear and they disappear.

This Step describes things that seem of great importance to most humans, such as death, illness, loss and destruction, and conflict, as temporary movements in the great stillness of God. Put this way, it does seem futile to invest all the blood, sweat and tears that are so often invested in these things. For the power of God is far greater, far more beneficent, “so complete and so inclusive that it infuses everything.” This does not mean, as I see it, that the power of God will fix these “temporary” things, prevent them from happening, it just means that they are inconsequential in the greater scheme of things where God’s power resides. They are ripples on the surface.

Ripples on the surface

I did not write much in my notes for this Step when I first did it back in December 2013. All I wrote was, “I am tentatively beginning to feel this power, and without conjuring up magical images. It is not anything that can be described in words, it can only be felt and experienced.”

That does not really say anything, I could even say now that I was taking the easy way out and glossing things over, creating a few ripples on the surface. Whether I actually felt and experienced the power of God is a moot point today. I may have, but on the other hand, I may not have.

What I understand today to be the power of God as I write this post is something that can be felt in a pure impulse, in a timeless moment of recognition. It goes deeper than just ripples on the surface, it echoes down the Ancient Corridors of my mind, evoking some long-forgotten and distant memory. I seek to remember this power today.

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How Will We Leave This Lovely, Dangerous Place?

Departures. How will we leave this lovely, dangerous placeNo, no, I’m not talking about a plane crash or a falling piano. Neither am I thinking about the biological processes involved. Some vital part is stressed beyond its capabilities and fails. So it goes. I’m particularly interested in the attitude, the frame of mind, with which certain people approach the day of their death.

How will we leave this lovely, dangerous place?

Someone who is contemplating becoming a student of Steps to Knowledge might reasonably wonder (among other things), “What does Steps to Knowledge teach about death?” They might also wonder, “How do students of Steps to Knowledge approach the day of their death?’

In the steps of Steps to Knowledge I have blogged about so far (steps 1 through 93), the word “death” is mentioned exactly once, in Step 40, “Today I will feel the power of God.”

“All the seeming powers of your world—the forces of nature, the inevitability of your death, the ever present threat of illness, loss and destruction and all appearances of conflict—are all temporary movements in the great stillness of God.”

Death, while significant, is not as significant as our cultural perspective. Step 65, “I have come to work in the world,” contains the following:

“You have come from a place of rest to a place of work. When the work is done, you go home to a place of rest. This can only be known, and your Knowledge will reveal this to you when you are ready”

While Steps to Knowledge claims that we go home to a place of rest, it also admits that this is something which can neither be observed by one’s senses, nor inferred or deduced by one’s intellect.

I only know of two students of Steps to Knowledge who have died. One of them was mentioned in an online chat. I never met them. The other person was a gentleman I met at the 2012 Encampment. As a matter of fact, we were roommates at Encampment, and we had a number of significant and fruitful conversations. We had a number of online and phone conversations between the time I met him in September of 2012, and the time he died in November of 2013. When he died, I was told he was diagnosed with colon cancer in the summer of 2013. I remember thinking to myself “Dead? Dead?!? I didn’t even know he was ill!” I consider him to have been remarkably discreet and undramatic about his illness.

Therefore, from what I have read in Steps to Knowledge, and what little I have observed of students, my answer to the question “How do students of Steps to Knowledge approach the day of their death?” is “With discretion, and without drama.” If they sing their noble death song, they sing it only to themselves, and die like a hero going home.

A fellow student shared something with me that I believe provides an excellent exclamation point:

“The man or woman of Knowledge knows that this life is a small and yet important part of much bigger lives that we’re all living. As such, they see their lives as brief missions on Earth and when they are done, they return to this greater life as a member of a Greater Community with knowledge of their mission on Earth done or not done.”

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Can I Find The Way To The Power Of God?

This is the sixth post in a series of seven posts regarding Step 49 of Steps to Knowledge.  In Step 49, I’ve been told to review my practice and experience of the first 48 Steps.  I am sharing what I wrote when I actually did the Step 49 review, and adding commentary as needed.

Step 36 – My life is a mystery to explore – “I remember thinking the phrase ‘going spelunking in my soul.'” I waited from early 2011 to June 2013 to write that phrase in a blog post.  Part of this step was taking the focus off of life as a result to be judged.

Step 37 – There is a way to Knowledge – “I wrote down this Step in this book,  I seem to think that I need to get high to get to Knowledge.” I wrote down 23 different practices, some of which are about development of character, some of which are about alteration of consciousness.

Step 38 – God knows the way to Knowledge – “I did the Step.  Sometime around this day I got there were Christians who found the way to Knowledge, like Joan of Arc.”  I’ve written two posts about Joan of Arc so far.  I will probably write more in the future.

Step 39 – The power of God is with me – “I did the step, recalling the hymn ‘Immortal, Invisible, God Only Wise.'”  This Christian hymn, written in 1876 to a Welsh melody, talks about God dwelling in inaccessible light.  It talks about God being “unresting, unhasting, and silent as light.”  This hymn had a similar vibration to me as the bit in the next step about the great stillness of God.

Step 40 – Today I will feel the power of God – “I commented on this Step.”  The post about tomato aspic is the commentary I wrote down.

Step 41 – I am not afraid of the power of God – “I commented on this Step.”  In that commentary, among other things, I wrote “The separation is insane, and to maintain it, I must spin a hurtful insane mud world around myself.”  Spinning a mud world around myself is a line from a Robert Bly translation of a Kabir poem.

Step 42 – Review – “I commented on this review.”  In that commentary, I wrote “Another thing I haven’t written down until now is that I’m very briefly scanning through the Steps I’ve done so far, in getting to the Step I’m going to do on a particular day.  That seems to help.”

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The Mystery of God

The mystery of God.

A Forest is a Temple of God

There was a time when I felt very ambivalent about the word “God.” However, Steps to Knowledge often refers to God, and the New Message from God is the source. Shouldn’t this have raised my hackles and if not sent me running from the room, at least made me want to retreat, quietly closing the door behind me?

Perhaps, but I did neither, instead I stayed in the room and decided to examine my ambivalence. What do I have against the word “God?” And I decided it was because I associate it with religion. But I don’t consider myself a religious person, I don’t go to church, and I don’t read the Bible, although there was a time in my life when I did go to church and there was a time in my life when I did read the Bible. I like the Bible, if the word “like” is appropriate in this context, I find it a source of infinite wisdom. I did not particularly like going to church though. It just never felt right, its walls were too confining.

Then I found that if I substituted the word “God” for “Higher Power,” my ambivalence lessened. In a forest grove with its majesty, air and light, I felt the closer presence of a Higher Power, so I substituted church for the forest and embraced the power I felt there.

The mystery of God.

And by the time I embarked on Steps to Knowledge, I was ready to acknowledge that “you find God in a pure impulse, in a timeless moment of recognition, in the desire to act beyond the sphere of your own personal interests and motives, in the recognition of another, in the motive to give, in the inexplicable experience of affinity. These are translatable. This is God in action. For you, this is God.”

Step 38 says that God knows the way to Knowledge, Step 39 reminds me that the power of God is with me, Step 40 tells me to feel the power of God today, and Step 41 asks me to affirm that I am not afraid of the power of God. With these tools in my arsenal and additionally armed with the affirmation “the power of God represents the mystery of [my] life” (Step 39), all ambivalence flew out the window for good.

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Tiny Twinges In The Tomato Aspic

Tomato AspicMy mother, like many women who grew up in the American south, served my family tomato aspic from time to time.  At that time, one could buy canned tomato aspic at the grocery store.  It was firm enough to retain its shape when it came out of the can.  My mother would cut it into 1-inch tall cylinders, and arrange it on a bed of lettuce with a dollop of mayonnaise on top.  As a child, I took satisfaction that tomato aspic was flexible enough to wiggle when pushed around, yet firm enough to not fall apart.

I’m sharing this memory because I recalled it when I read this sentence in step 40 of Steps to Knowledge (“Today I will feel the power of God.”):

All the seeming powers of your world—the forces of nature, the inevitability of your death, the ever present threat of illness, loss and destruction and all appearances of conflict—are all temporary movements in the great stillness of God.

God is still because God isn’t going anywhere.  God isn’t going anywhere because God is already everywhere.  Perhaps another way of thinking of the power of God is to think of God as impervious, that there isn’t anything that happens that makes God any less.  Step 40 calls everything that happens “temporary movements in the great stillness of God.”  I call them “tiny twinges in the tomato aspic.”  It takes all kinds of people.

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