Не пропустить самое существенное

самое существенное

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Я часто ловлю себя на том, что я как-то пропускаю самое существенное. Может быть, я слишком требовательно к себе, ведь в такие моменты я часто получаю новое сознание.

Шаг 36 в книге «Шаги к Знанию»: “Моя жизнь – загадка для разведывания” призывает к более глубокому погружению в свой ум, чтобы разыскать истинный смысл жизни, своего бытия, и своего предназначения в мире.

В своих записях к этому шагу, я писала о том, как у меня есть желание разведывать свою жизнь, проникнуть глубже в свой ум, глубже чем поверхность и обнаружить нечто больше, существеннее и значимее. У меня есть сильное стремление к познанию, к Знанию, которое является сутью всего бытия и себя истинного. А всё-таки бывает, что чувствую, что пропускаю самое существенное, самое существенное ускользает, а я всё пытаюсь его ловить.

Шаг 36 также упоминает моих Учителей. Первое упоминание Учителей находится в Шаге 22, где их называют Божественными учителями. А в Шаге 36, их называют Духовными учителями. В своих записках, я выражаю сомнение о том, существуют ли на самом деле Духовные учителя, которые наблюдают лично за мной, поддерживают меня, интересуются мной? Я хотела бы верить в это, но может это всего лишь самоуспокоение, некий конструкт собственного ума, или же я самое существенное всё-таки пропустила?

Но этот Шаг гласит, что от качества взаимоотношения со своими учителями зависит мой успех. Чем сильнее эта взаимосвязь, тем крепче и увереннее я буду себя чувствовать. Ведь эти учителя знают путь к Знанию, они уже прошли его, и хотят мне показать. Ну чтож, я готова доверяться этим. Пусть это будет та загадка моей жизни, что стоит разведывать.

Не пропустить самое существенное

самое существенное

А как развивать и укреплять эти взаимоотношения со своими учителями? Как не пропустить самое существенное?

Я нашла интересную статью на этой теме. Вот как она начинается:

«Мы считаем мудрость чем-то, чему нам следует учиться, и это отчасти верно. Однако великие философии также убеждают нас, что мудрость уже пребывает внутри нас. Наш ум – необычайное чудо, по словам Карла Юнга, «величайшее из космических чудес» – и он содержит в себе непочатые ресурсы мудрости и понимания. Мы знаем больше, чем нам кажется». Читайте дальше тут.

Вот жизнь – загадка, и её не распутать в один день, даже в один год. Найти самое существенное потребует много времени. Ведь это путешествие длиною в жизнь, а есть надежда в том, что в конце концов я открою себе то самое существенное.

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Am I Missing Some Essential Point?

missing some essential point

There are times when I feel I am missing some essential point. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself, but I have found that working through such times of confusion often leads to new consciousness.

I have shared on Step 36. My Life Is a Mystery to Explore before in this space, but I will elaborate some more now. I shared earlier that when I did this Step, I had the desire to explore my life, I wanted to delve beneath the surface and discover something greater, more meaningful, more profound. I still have this desire, I still strive for comprehension, I still recognize a deeper yearning. Yet still I feel I may be missing some essential point. I often wonder if I am merely construing everything to suit my personal preferences. I suspect, however, that my personal preferences abide on the surface of my mind and, while they are a part of me, they do not represent the true core of my being, my True Self.

Step 36 says that if I am seeking for greater meaning, which is true meaning, I must penetrate the surface of my mind. It also mentions my Teachers again, now calling them Spiritual Teachers. These Teachers were first introduced as the Teachers of God in Step 22.

I wrote in my notes that I felt some doubt about having my own Spiritual Teachers who are looking out for me personally, supporting and guiding me. Who are these teachers and why are they interested in me? Is this not just wishful thinking? Or perhaps, again, I am missing some essential point here, my notes say.

However, I am told in this Step that the quality of my relationship with my Teachers is essential to give me strength and encouragement. They know the way to Knowledge, they have passed this way before, and they are seeking to share it with me. I am willing to trust that this is so. If this is part of the mystery of my life I am to explore, I am up for it.

Am I missing some essential point?

missing some essential point

I did this Step on December 13, 2012. Today I can say that I have been able to develop a deeper relationship with my Teachers. When I enter stillness, they are there, they give me strength and encouragement. They tell me I am doing fine, but I am still learning and I still have a long way to go. How do I know this? I see my Teachers in my mind’s eye and I hear what they are conveying to me in my mind’s ear. If I am missing some essential point, I think that is natural. After all my life is a mystery to explore and mysteries are not unraveled in one day, or even one year. Finding the missing essential point may take quite some time.

I am on a mysterious lifetime journey and I trust that any essential point I am missing will eventually be revealed.

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I Wish To Explore The Mystery

Mystery of a sunset on Upper Volga Reservoir, Tver Region, Russia

I believe that one of the reasons I am attracted to Steps to Knowledge is that they often describe life as a mystery and I find this to be totally glorious.

This mystery is first mentioned in Step 10. What Is Knowledge? Here I am told that Knowledge is the great mystery of my life. I felt so enchanted by this that I was drawn to explore further. A mystery has a myriad enticing possibilities, to me it means that nothing is set in stone, if something is mysterious, it is malleable, multifaceted, with the potential to be miraculous.

Mystery is next mentioned in Step 36. Your Life Is A Mystery to Explore. When I did this Step, I wrote in my notes that it made me want to delve beneath the surface and discover something greater, more meaningful, more profound. And indeed this Step calls for penetrating the surface of my mind and feeling the presence of my Spiritual Teachers. Hmmm, now they are indeed a mystery to explore.

I cherish moments when I can truly experience the Mystery.

One such moment was during a short vacation recently when I traveled out into the magnificent Russian countryside.

One lovely warm August evening I sat and watched the sun set.

In my ears were the words and lilting melody of Stevie Wonder’s Heaven Is 10 Zillion Light Years Away.

Sunset Clouds on Upper Volga Reservoir, Tver Region, Russia

As I watched the sky and listened to the song, the words struck a deep chord in my soul, and I thought, heaven is not 10 zillion light years away, it is right here before me, no further away than the horizon. And it can be even closer; when I open my heart to the mystery of Knowledge, I truly feel it inside me.

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Can I Find The Way To The Power Of God?

This is the sixth post in a series of seven posts regarding Step 49 of Steps to Knowledge.  In Step 49, I’ve been told to review my practice and experience of the first 48 Steps.  I am sharing what I wrote when I actually did the Step 49 review, and adding commentary as needed.

Step 36 – My life is a mystery to explore – “I remember thinking the phrase ‘going spelunking in my soul.'” I waited from early 2011 to June 2013 to write that phrase in a blog post.  Part of this step was taking the focus off of life as a result to be judged.

Step 37 – There is a way to Knowledge – “I wrote down this Step in this book,  I seem to think that I need to get high to get to Knowledge.” I wrote down 23 different practices, some of which are about development of character, some of which are about alteration of consciousness.

Step 38 – God knows the way to Knowledge – “I did the Step.  Sometime around this day I got there were Christians who found the way to Knowledge, like Joan of Arc.”  I’ve written two posts about Joan of Arc so far.  I will probably write more in the future.

Step 39 – The power of God is with me – “I did the step, recalling the hymn ‘Immortal, Invisible, God Only Wise.'”  This Christian hymn, written in 1876 to a Welsh melody, talks about God dwelling in inaccessible light.  It talks about God being “unresting, unhasting, and silent as light.”  This hymn had a similar vibration to me as the bit in the next step about the great stillness of God.

Step 40 – Today I will feel the power of God – “I commented on this Step.”  The post about tomato aspic is the commentary I wrote down.

Step 41 – I am not afraid of the power of God – “I commented on this Step.”  In that commentary, among other things, I wrote “The separation is insane, and to maintain it, I must spin a hurtful insane mud world around myself.”  Spinning a mud world around myself is a line from a Robert Bly translation of a Kabir poem.

Step 42 – Review – “I commented on this review.”  In that commentary, I wrote “Another thing I haven’t written down until now is that I’m very briefly scanning through the Steps I’ve done so far, in getting to the Step I’m going to do on a particular day.  That seems to help.”

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Why Do I Need Teachers? Let Me Count The Ways

Learning or downloading?The idea of the Teachers of God was introduced in Step 22 of Steps to Knowledge, and elaborated on in Steps 23, 24, 25, 28 and 36.  They are being mentioned again in Step 47, but as part of larger discussion about the nature of learning.  I quote from the Step:

“You have been prepared through relationships for everything that you have learned, whether it be a practical skill or a deeper insight.”

The way I see this, when anyone has the thought, “Hmm…maybe I should learn more about this particular subject,” if it is traced back far enough, it is another way of saying “Perhaps if I learned more about this particular subject, I could contribute something more to a certain relationship than I am currently contributing.”  The very thought that I should care goes back to relationships.

Even in the area of practical skills, people have things they don’t know that they don’t know about themselves, and they have things they don’t know that the don’t know about the thing about which they want to learn something.  I consider it a miracle that learning takes place as often as it does.

People will vigorously protest that they know how to learn.  But the same people will also vigorously protest that they know how to eat.  I willingly grant that people know how to put things in their mouths, chew them and swallow them.  But how many of these people have health issues because they’re eating too much of this and not enough of that?  And why are they eating too much of this and not enough of that?  Some people’s learning is more profitable than other people’s learning, just like some people’s eating is more healthy than other people’s eating.

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Better Yet, There Is A Way To Knowledge For Me

Is This The Way To Knowledge

Step 38 of Steps to Knowledge “God knows the way to Knowledge” inspired a similar response in me to the one inspired by step 37 “There is a way to Knowledge.” God had darn well better know the way to Knowledge!  But step 38 added something in which I took comfort; the idea that other people had found and taken a successful way to Knowledge for them.

The Kabir poem “Music” gives the idea that there are people who undertake certain sets of practices because someone else did in some time and some place, and were successful. Are they engaging in something that is necessary, but not sufficient, or is the whole enterprise doomed from the beginning because they are imitating someone else instead of exploring the mystery of their own life?

Someone reading this just thought “Well, what about atheists?  Are they just out of luck with this Knowledge thing?”  Atheists can experience things as self-evident, in a way that inspires consistent action.

Thinking about step 38 encourages me to think that one inner meaning of step 37 is “There is a way to Knowledge for me.”  Thinking about step 38 encourages me to think that one inner meaning of step 38 is “God knows the way to Knowledge for me (and He’s not hiding it from me, either.)”

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My Soul Is A Site For Spelunking

 

Cave of Crystals, Mexico

I recall many years ago being shown a diagram with four quadrants, where one quadrant is what we know and others know about ourselves (our public selves), what we know about ourselves that others don’t know (our secret selves), what others know about us that we don’t know (the “bad breath area”) and the part of us which neither we nor others know about us.  Steps to Knowledge teaches that a person’s mission in life resides in that mysterious portion of life. This is taught in Step 36, “My life is a mystery to explore.” Part of the price of admission for getting to where Steps to Knowledge is going is the willingness to explore that unknown, undocumented region.

Another part of the price of admission is the recognition that not everyone is interested in taking this journey, and releasing other people from the requirement that they appreciate this journey.  I’ve already been told once that I’m not like most people, but I still sometimes have a hard time thinking of it as a benefit rather than a problem.  Step 34 spoke of emotional honesty as a hallmark of Knowledge, so I believe that flattery would not be a strategy to get people to go forward.

Gold tried by fire

As I thought about this step, I recalled the proverb of Solomon: “The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold, but people are tested by their praise.” (Proverbs 27:21, NIV)

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